Friday, July 17, 2009


I'm really bummed to have missed the PDXPOPNOW kickoff yesterday at City Hall. I was so looking forward to seeing all that great music with my family & friends. But today is another day. Full of things to do, places to be and people to see. Westfold @ Ash Street, sweet live stuff @ Rotture, Pink Mountain @ Backspace, Death Cab @ Edgefield, The Greater Midwest @ Kellys Olympian, the list goes on. A list of things I won't make it out to. Because I am broke and I am waiting for a call to do a phone interview with a cllothing re-sale company from the city. So, hopefully that works out and I'll be back out to support the crappy music business scavangers soon enough. Or maybe I'll just start hosting shows and booking them as well. We'll see.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

getting fucked in the ass in the name of love

Maui Wowie,
I wish you were here with my right now. I need a chill pill, chill kill. My awesome sister just walked off on my in downtown hippieassfuckdykesvilleve. AKA Eugene, Oregon. Oh yeah, that was awesome since I haven't lived here for the last 7+ years and I don't know my way around. So, I walked back to my OTHER sisters house from, a bar somewhere downtown. In tears, you may ask. Yeah. Out of frusturation. Mad my supposed "boyfriend" won't answer his phone until the 6th time I call. Then when the 6th time comes around he says he didn't answer because he was "wrangling the casts in."
Since when did it take anyone an hour to wrangle cats? I mean, I give up after 10 minutes of hollerin.
Even cooler, he called me back in the midst of me leaving a rude but honest message about my situation - then when I answered his call, he didn't even bother to ask me - "What's up?"
To break it down for you, I have a careless, heartless sister AND boyfriend.
JUST what I've always wanted.
WOE is me.
wah wah wah.
What I want is Jason Segel to be quite honest. And other not to be mentioned. Really what I want is to be back in Portland in the arms of my dear, sincere friends who actually seem to care about me. I miss Rachel & Golider & Nina & everyone.
What I want is to get through school and be successful.
I want to be in ATL with KRISTEN.
I want K to be here.
I want to be fucking appreciated by people I put time into. For example, my "sister" and my "boyfriend"
what a fucking joke. i have a better chance of winning the trillion dollar lottery than be a part of their fucking miniscule heart.
i just ask for and expect too much.

lesson of the day:
you're fucked no matter how much work you put into it. the end